Sadly from where I stand, I almost would give anything to forget. I know it's somewhat morbid to say so, because that would be a place to where you cannot come back, but at least I wouldn't have to feel this. On one hand, you'd lose a piece to the puzzle and it would be gone forever, but at the same time so would the pain. And at this point, I just want the pain to go away forever. I'm tired.