Sometimes I always wonder what if there was a magical way that we could go back and reexamine a time/day/situation that could have altered the course of our lives forever. Sounds fun, right?
Of course the company line is that things always work out for the best and for the most part I very much believe that is to be true. However, does it ever occur to you that maybe, just maybe that isn't the case. Think about it. Why do we watch movies, read, dream and such? Because, in fantasy the good guy always wins. Our hero always rides into the sunset. In real life, this isn't always the case. I know this, you know this, we all know this. But, most choose to deny this.
So, you probably wonder what's my point? Point is, sometimes I think about this power to go back and see what might have, or what could have been and of course, you'll have people tell you that it happened the way it did because this is how it was meant to be and it all happened for the best. But you know what truly strikes fear in our hearts? What if the alternative outcome would have really been for the best?
Think about it. How much more like real life would that be. It follows the same pattern. Maybe saying "This all happens for a reason or for the best" is merely just another way of denial? All it does is act as some sort of medicinal cure for the soul. A white lie that helps us sleep at night, but all along we know that it's false. That my friends is frightening. The thing that makes me think, is if there was a way to see these alternate endings, that if we found out they were better and truly for the best. How hard would that be to take? Knowing that we were the true creator of our own demise. See, we feel so much better when we can blame someone else for our failures. This allows us to accept them and say 'Hey, fuck them, it's all their fault. We did everything right!" But, what happens when to place the blame, you only need look in the mirror? That's what really hurts.
And that's why such a power could be the opening of Pandora's Box. Still, I find myself wishing to see. We've all been there. Like choosing different doors to walk through, it could be anything to anyone. It could be saying something, doing something, or doing nothing at all.
Therein lies the dilemma. But, in the end it doesn't matter. Because, this is real life and we all need reasons to dream anyway. It's just too bad we can't go back and see. It could have been what we were looking for all along, right under our nose. And like dust, one breath and it blows away, perhaps for eternity. And the only one you can blame stares you in the eyes every time they look in the mirror. All you can do is stare them right back in eyes and say "I'm sorry."
Of course the company line is that things always work out for the best and for the most part I very much believe that is to be true. However, does it ever occur to you that maybe, just maybe that isn't the case. Think about it. Why do we watch movies, read, dream and such? Because, in fantasy the good guy always wins. Our hero always rides into the sunset. In real life, this isn't always the case. I know this, you know this, we all know this. But, most choose to deny this.
So, you probably wonder what's my point? Point is, sometimes I think about this power to go back and see what might have, or what could have been and of course, you'll have people tell you that it happened the way it did because this is how it was meant to be and it all happened for the best. But you know what truly strikes fear in our hearts? What if the alternative outcome would have really been for the best?
Think about it. How much more like real life would that be. It follows the same pattern. Maybe saying "This all happens for a reason or for the best" is merely just another way of denial? All it does is act as some sort of medicinal cure for the soul. A white lie that helps us sleep at night, but all along we know that it's false. That my friends is frightening. The thing that makes me think, is if there was a way to see these alternate endings, that if we found out they were better and truly for the best. How hard would that be to take? Knowing that we were the true creator of our own demise. See, we feel so much better when we can blame someone else for our failures. This allows us to accept them and say 'Hey, fuck them, it's all their fault. We did everything right!" But, what happens when to place the blame, you only need look in the mirror? That's what really hurts.
And that's why such a power could be the opening of Pandora's Box. Still, I find myself wishing to see. We've all been there. Like choosing different doors to walk through, it could be anything to anyone. It could be saying something, doing something, or doing nothing at all.
Therein lies the dilemma. But, in the end it doesn't matter. Because, this is real life and we all need reasons to dream anyway. It's just too bad we can't go back and see. It could have been what we were looking for all along, right under our nose. And like dust, one breath and it blows away, perhaps for eternity. And the only one you can blame stares you in the eyes every time they look in the mirror. All you can do is stare them right back in eyes and say "I'm sorry."
posted by Jimmy at 9:20 PM
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