"Sometimes when you're holding on, you fail to see the light."

I really like this quote...Good stuff.

"Just because something is meant to be, doesn't mean that it is, now..."

This is very fascinating. This is my Maya-Aztec horoscope. I'm always looking for various takes on stuff. This one's a good one.


DAY-SIGN: 12-Ocelot
(Maya: 12-Ix)

YEAR: West -10 (Tikal System)

13-DAY PERIOD: 1-House
(Maya: 1-Akbal)

NIGHT LORD: 4

VENUS PHASE: Evening Star





Introduction - The Astrology of Time

The ancient Maya and Aztec astrologers studied the mysterious influence of the rhythms of the sky on earthly life. Everyone knows the Sun rises and sets every day -- this is the basic rhythm of life around which we set our clocks and calendars. What the ancient astrologers discovered was that other time cycles existed that were multiples of this basic day cycle. This fact was discovered about 100 years ago in Europe and these cycles (there are many of them) are now called biorhythms.
The most important time cycles in ancient Mayan and Aztec astrology are those of the day, 9-days, 13-days, and 20-days. Additionally, years are counted also, in groups of 4 and 13. Each day is then part of several other cycles, so no two days are exactly the same. Your Maya/Aztec horoscope below shows exactly where in each of the cycles you were born. Each category below examines a specific cycle and a specific aspect of your personality. Keep in mind that our personalities are complex and contain many contradictions. All of us present a different "face" depending on who we meet. The delineations below will reflect this, but they will also give you a clear picture of who you really are. The true value of astrology lies in self-knowledge, the first step to wisdom.



Your Most Personal Traits -- The Day-Sign of Your Birth

Here are your strongest and most obvious personality traits. The delineation below describes who you are and how you appear to others, at least on the surface. In Aztec astrology this part of is your horoscope is your Tonalli, or Day-Sign, the form bestowed upon you by the Sun.
Ocelot: Privacy is something that you need, yet your tendency to become involved in entangled relationships often makes this difficult. By nature, you are a secretive person who has found that controlling information helps you maintain some control over your life. You have an inborn sense of strategy and make a good planner and investigator.

You are also quite aggressive and competitive. You will fight to make a point, though you usually do so in a somewhat indirect way. In conversation you can be cutting and sarcastic, but you do use subtlety and rarely come right out with what you think.

You tend to have rather complex relationships with spouses, relatives and friends. Your pattern is to become deeply involved on many levels and to base some of your security needs on these relationships. When things turn sour, you find yourself caught up in a network of ties, dependencies, and obligations that are difficult to throw off easily and quickly. At worst, you may become socially mal-adjusted and dependent. At best, you are a person who can heal sick human relationships as well as explore them to their fullest.

You probably have some psychic abilities. You are very sensitive in general and can read people intuitively. Negatively, this sensitivity could become a problem, particularly when alcohol or drugs are involved. Some Ocelot personalities develop their psychic senses or master divination techniques. On another level, medical and healing arts may appeal to you and, as a practitioner or counselor, you find your way to a diagnosis using your powerful instincts. In fact, you may be a natural healer.

You are probably regarded as an intelligent person and are possibly very well-educated. You display a facility for communication and may actually be a powerful and persuasive speaker or writer. Negatively, you can dominate conversations or attempt to impose your views on others. You have a powerful imagination and are capable of visualizing all sorts of things, from the sublime to the paranoid. Possibly the best type of education for you is one in which psychology and social sciences are emphasized.



Your Deeper Self -- The 13-Day Week of Your Birth

Each of us reacts to the world around us in different ways. Our reactions are mostly unconscious; they represent what our deeper self needs. Our reactions both attract and repel us from things, people, and situations. What we like, what we like to do, and who we really are is shown by the 13-day week called the Trecena that we were born under. Each of these periods begins with the number 1 and the name of the day-sign that starts it. A number is attached to your position within the 13-day period that may be an important number for you.
This is the twelfth day of the 13-day period beginning with 1-House. Beneath your surface personality you are a person who needs very secure foundations. These may be intellectual, as in science or religion, or they may be material, as in possession of valuables. Whether or not you seek mental or economic security, you are a person with standards to meet and uphold. You are also a private and somewhat aloof individual. You tend to stay near your home and family, but you still look for mentally challenging problems to tackle.

I'm really tired.

I can only wonder what you think. How fun would it be to shock them all? You only hope all this "talk" actually leads to realization. Maybe, we'll have a good laugh and watch everyone gasp.

Fear is what is the source of drive, persistence and desire. It can steer us away from our ultimate goal, yet simultaneously, it can make us chase it with more passion. The choice is up to us. Which door do we want to walk through? Fear makes us scared everyday and makes us fight a battle that may never end. It's the hope that conquering this ultimate of foes will enable us to enjoy every day for the rest of our lives. It's with each day that I hope to bask in the sunlight of tranquility for eternity. To be able to live without fear and to never wake from that dream.

I don't know what to say. It's not really interesting. I wish for a lot of things. Right now, I'd prefer to just sit and be consumed by the warm breeze. Let it take me to the brick house. Then, it's as if you can see the smiles forever in an endless sea of time. I like the picture. I hope for it to absorb me in and then, let the music play, because I'll be home.

I'm sick and tired of being sick. I have little energy. I yearn for the days where I'm full of spunk. I miss that person a lot.

So, I made a wish and despite what all may have thought, or especially what I thought and still think, something funny happen that I completley never realized. It actually came true. However, the result has never appeared to be as I expected, I do know and need to know, taht it actually came true. You probably don't believe me. Shoot, I hardly believe it either, but that's not how it works. I just want to wake and live the eternal dream.

It just sucks. You're stuck in your own purgatory. Call it your "Permanent Midnight." At this point, I'm done. I'm out of answers. Perhaps, I'm even out of questions. What's the point anymore?

Ignorance is bliss, but you already know. Rather than dwell, accept and realize that you were only fooling yourself. The mistakes were way before you decided to join the party.

To just sit and stare away to the vastness of uncertainty would scare some, but I know no other away, even at a time when all seems lost. I just sit and hope to awaken from this veil of darkness to awake and see the light, feel the breeze and hear the ocean. Then, I will turn and there you will be.