Let's see. I think I'll try this again. The irony is that I actually would still write in this blog again. See I started this a long time ago with the hope that I could gain clarity by analyzing some of the random musings that I would conceive in my mind.
Funny thing is, the one person that convinced me to start writing this was my only reader. And to her credit, she was a loyal reader. Today, she won't read it, mainly because she doesn't know I and starting again. See, she has one too, but doesn't write in her anymore either.
It doesn't matter though. She wouldn't read it because honestly, she could care less. She is a symbolic figure of a fading time. Like time and life, she is eroding away, fading slowly out of my life. Unfortunately, that's life - in many cases, we're all just passing through.
People are hard to explain, but clarity exists and isn't that hard if you know what you seek. I realize that friends are friends because its easy. Add some distance and they move on and forget about you...
Sometimes, we try to hard to hold on to what once existed. Thing is, we are lost within a dream. It doesn't exist anymore or worse, it never existed as you see it now.
Yeah, we can sit here and ponder the mistakes we made, but they're made and as much as it hurts your heart you can't change it.
What's important is that you take a minute and open your eyes. You will see a new beginning. You will see new people, people that will mesh with the old ones. Then, you will also see the ones who continue to fade and the sooner the better. See, they only exist now to try to take you down, to try to bring forth your own demise. In the end, all you're really doing is drowning in a sea of names.
Yeah, my reader may be gone, but thing is, she probably wouldn't understand me anymore anyway. And honestly, did she ever truly grasp what was there? They only existed because it was easy. Add some distance and they moved on and forgot about you...like it never happened.
